Its funny when someone claims to love you and even say they see kids in "our" future.. yet when the going gets tough they want nothing to do with you..

Its the sad truth in people I've come to know..

I have been in and out of work for a year.. Mostly out then in, and I have lived all over. Some places you would ask yourself why? or even, how? And I survived betrayal, hatred, despair, the law, the harsh city and the lonely small towns, and the inside of my car..just everything i could ever imagine. I've been threw it and threw thick and thin I found a way to live. If thats what you want to call it.

Its funny how life has twisted itself into what seems to be an undo-able knot.

And that's just the cherry on-top of a putrid cake..

Well now things are looking a tiny bit better.. Ive moved back in with the parents (had my own place at 20, lost it at 22) I have a job that seems permanent until i find something better.. Perhaps now my girlfriend will want to be with me.. She did say shed wait for me to get my life back in order..

But I know she wont, things like that never work out.. even if she did, when she left me alone in my deepest time of need.. well Im not sure Id want her back.

The sad truth.